Jumat, 04 Juli 2014

Not Over You



I guess my heart only knows you

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Travis thinks it's the perfect day to go out for a walk, since the sun shines so bright that his eyes squint. But apparently not. Not after he broke up with Lizzy yesterday. It's not like he's still in love with her, he's just guilty. That girl is just so into him; her eyes sparkle, she smiles way too wide, she gives Travis all the attention that sometimes Travis would just push her away. This is just too much, Travis thought. He thought he deserves it, but no, he is not, and now he feels so guilty for her. He basically just used her for something he is not even sure about.

His phone vibrates.

'I understand, Travis. Don't worry'
it says.

Travis smiles at the message. His chest is no longer as tight as it was just now.

Her good point is that she lets things go easily. If something doesn't go her way then it's okay, it's nothing new, anyway.

Soon, Travis decides to take a tour around the neighborhood. He paddles his bike as slow as possible, enjoying the scenery that he never knew does exist. Three blocks away later, he finds himself looking at the cozy-looking cafe across the street. He remembers that place.

He wonders if she still go there to grab some Caramel Iced Coffee.

Just when he is having some thoughts about her, the figure suddenly appears in front him (almost) like a magic. Not really 'in front of him' actually, she's there, across the street, with a tall boy. He knows him, it's his classmate back to his old days in high school, Roy. A loud, happy-go-lucky guy with gummy smile. Funny how he's grinning to himself as soon as he discovered the guy. Even funnier when he remembers he used to be friend with him until last year when he broke up with the girl. Funny. Really.
 

The girl. Kim. The girl that he used to date for 4 years.

She's his third girlfriend, but she's his first love. She's the most amazing thing that ever happened to him and it was so difficult to let her go. Even until now, he's not even sure himself if he's over her. But seeing the smile on her face when she talks to Roy right now, maybe he is (not). She looks so happy. She looks so perfect. And Travis feels so relieved. At least that girl didn't fall into the wrong hand.

He's still on his bike, looking at the beautiful figure through the not so crowded road and the invisible window glass. After the good ten minutes, she finds him, and everything freezes. His heart thumps rapidly as her eyes find his. And then she smiles.

She smiles at him. Travis smiles back and waves his hand at her once, and then he leaves.


The feeling is so great that he smiles all the way back home. His heart couldn't get any lighter than it is right now.

Maybe I'm not over her, maybe I look so pathetic, but I don't care anymore, I'll win her.

 
Soon, very soon.

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What am I doing, again? -____-

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