eye candy. (2) (csc - ksy)

Just wanna show the world how amazing these boys are.
I'm not going to say too much (I won't say anything actually)
Note: Stan Seventeen. Stan Talent. These boys are not all about looks or heights or some kind of that bullshit, these boys are talented as fuck you'll be ashamed!

let's just quit

I feel like shit these days. I might appear very fine. Too fine, actually. I wake up at 8, skip breakfast, watch comedy shows, play twitter, not socializing with anyone, eat dinner, read fictions, then I'll call it a day. Since the new semester isn't gonna start anytime soon. 

But, the noise inside my head, the worries I keep in my heart, all the supposed-to-be-irrelevant thoughts, the uncomfortable bullshit in my guts, yikes! Sometimes I wonder if it's okay to just die. 

"What kind of crap are you talking about? You look fine and happy! You can't be that stressed out!"

Well, ya, what do you know about me? 

I never joke about 'stress'. It's a strong word to me. Don't play around using that term. 

deux

SOOOO

HELLO!

I'm here again and guess why? Yep, because today is my birthday and it feels weird to not post anything in this.... full-of-cobwebs blog. I feel kinda sorry for abandoning this ship(?) for how long? Almost a year? Oh my God.

I look back at the time when I used to post thrice a day. What the hell man what did I do in my life before that I got that much of a free time to blog?? Right. Middle school. Puberty, first love, tryhards, and all that shit.

Ok. Back to the main topic of the day.

I'M 20 YEARS OLD! TWENTY! I'M IN MY EARLY 20S NOW OHMYGODDDDD

Does that mean I will face my midlife crisis, soon? Too early for that? Who knows?

I can't believe I can't say shit like "Hell yeah I'm still 19 years old, brah!" anymore. (lol but that sounds really stupid what did i think) I'm kinda sad. Good bye, 10s.

Look at me look at me look at me I'm kinda childish if you read this entry but believe it or not, I'm a pretty cool and chill girl in real life. Turning 20 does not do shit in my life tbvh. Age doesn't change anything. People does. I guess. Idk much about life but I do know enough to keep me sane and open.

Ok, now, what do I want for my birthday?

I just hope I can increase my GPA by a number or more. It's depressing to think about it. Imagining the lecturers and the sins I've made in the process of my study. Oh hell no I've done a lot of unthinkable mistakes. Please, God, it's about time my GPA shines as bright as the stars. I cannot wait much longer. I will become an intern next year so please :-(

And another thing I want is.... for my family to stay healthy..... and healthier if that's possible (and getting wealthier) (it's all about the $$ anyway) (what's new) (tuition fee is the shit I want to sue somebody)

And I need a fucking driving license!

Oh, and I want a brand new laptop. LOL. Really. I want it and I NEED it. There, I put in the keyword. The main point.




Bangsat ah pake bahasa Indonesia aja, udah malem ini ngetiknya keburu ngantuk gak bisa mikir banyak. Huhu

Intinya bersyukur aja sama Yang Maha Kuasa udah dikasih umur panjang dan semoga barokah. Semoga di umur yang ke-20 ini, Nanda bisa jadi pribadi yang lebih baik lagi, jadi lebih mandiri dan dewasa, bisa menjalani sisa-sisa proker dengan lancar, bisa lebih membanggakan orang tua, dan yang penting jangan sakit-sakitan. Dah. Itu aja. Sisanya pokoknya yang baek-baek aja lah ya masa doain orang yang jelek sih kan ntar backfire wkwkw

Bodo


Udah itu aja

Wassalam

(btw, lu tau yang pertama kali ngucapin selamat ulang tahun siapa? kaskus! wkwkwkw how sweet!)